Mar 06 2009
Intuition…… you know that gut feeling that gets really annoying at times.
So i usually have pretty good intuition when it comes to my life and things that involve me. if something isn’t quite right then i can kinda feel it, know what i’m saying. Now i know that when emotions get involved such as in relationships it can get hard to tell whether what your intuition tells you is right or wrong.
Unfortunately in my case for the past month i’ve been having this nagging feeling that my boyfriend isn’t telling me everything i need should know and this isn’t the first time i’ve felt it. i hate bringing it up to him because then we always get into a huge arguement because he thinks this means i don’t trust him and etc. when really all i want to know is if i’m getting the whole story or just parts of it. I only gave him 3 rules in our relationship
1. Don’t Lie to Me
2. Don’t Cheat on Me
3. Don’t Treat Me Like Shit
that’s not too much to ask is it. now i get the nagging feeling because i don’t think he’s being 100% honest with me. i think that parts of what he says are the truth and the other part is fabricated. We have been going out for 2 years and a bit and i really don’t know what to do. I want to confront him about it and say look if you’re not going to be 100% honest with me like i have been with you then let me know so i can leave. but at the same time i love him and want to believe he wouldn’t betray me like that because if he’s lying right now, what else has he lied about you know what i am getting at. hopefully things will work themselves out because i’m not a huge fan of confrontation and the less of it i have to do the better in my opinion.
In other news however there is only a month and a half left of classes before the end of this semester and i honestly can’t wait. though that also means that i have to tackle my essay on alcoholics anonymous before april 7th which i’m really not looking forward to, but what must be done has to be done so i shall leave you there for now and hopefully you will hear from me soon and hopefully by that time my present phlegmy cough will be gone 
Toodles
Those are hard things for a young man to promise. Later, he’ll know you’re right. He’s just lucky you told him what made you angry. If he’s honest with himself, he’ll know why you’re angry if he strays.
Marilynne
they are hard to promise and thats exactly why i told him haha, because this way (if he’s smart) he’ll know why i’m mad with him.
i can only expect so much but hopefully it all works out.